Goodbye ITE!!!!!

hmmm.. my last paper today... damn! the paper was kind of easy... i didnt expect i could simple answer all the question... n having the last paper today, its my last day in ITE Clementi...

urgh!!! going to miss the canteen... the new toilet... the smoking session in the toilet... the slacking in the canteen wen its lesson time... the squeezing everybody in one round table... the laughing out loud... the screaming that make whole canteen quiet.. the shopping at he co-op shop... the surfing net session even when teacher asked to do their work... the going everywhere together... the united mate... the manje session with everyone.. the everything in ITE CLEMENTI... not forgetting my lovely nice class advisor, Ms Grace Cheong...

yah!! the most important ppl who change my life... making everything worthwhile... making everything meaningful... everything memorable... jus make it so perfect... the ppl behind my growing up... A'AH, LISA, SU, IRA, SHIRA, QUSH, HAFIS, DEN, ASHRAF, EMILIA... they really chased my blues away... make my day so beautiful... make myself so pampered... make me feel i'm sumone in their life... make me respect every single things they do... really make me feel so WONDERFUL... jus love the way i treated them... jus love the way the return back the same treatment... jus love the ups n downs of us... n yet we are still united... jus love the silliness in them... the cute reaction of them... i jus love everything... i really going to miss them... i can feel the lost rite now... being together for one year, seems like 10 years of frenship... jus imagine how close we can be... taking this opportunity to say, THANK THEM FOR EVERYTHING... wanna say I LOVE YOU ALL... I'LL NEVER GOING TO FORGET EVERY SINGLE MOMENT WE HAD TOGETHER... I'LL TREASURE OUR FRIENDSHIP...

i jus hope we can still meet up sometimes.. having outing together... having the same fun we used to have... damn!!! am i so feeling?... argh!! who care!! jus missing them... hmmm... one last kiss for all... MMMMMMUUUUUUUUUUUUUAAAAAAAAAAC
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You Are My Home

All of my life
I been searching
For someone to find me
I have been looking
Waiting for your arms
To pull Me

You took Me
In from the cold
And out of the dark
You have taken Me
Into your heart

*You are my home
You are the one that I come to
You are the shelter I run to to keep Me safe from the cold
You are my home
You are the love that completes me
You are the touch that has freed Me
I look in your eyes
And I know
You are my home

You were the light in the window
When I couldnt find my way
You led my heart to
Want them to place me
Here besides you

You are were I always will be
You are where I belong
I've been looking for you
For so long

*

And I'll never be alone

*

Baby, baby
Baby, You are my home

I look in your eyes
Te miro a los ojos
Y me haces sentir
Baby, Baby, Baby, Baby
You are my home
You are my home

The Fry Day

k morning, was pissed off with my mum... early in the morning she already give me a 'sweet' talk... damn! how she talked abt my hair... my attire la.. almost everything... she keep on asking me to buy things for her... k fine... i will always say not enouf money... everytime, when it come to money matter, she will pop-up the problem of me smoking... i told her everything got nothing to do with my habit on smoking... argh!! jus to make her stop, i jus say this to her... "Mum i didnt even hear the birds chirping, n y do u have to start nagging!!"... den after that she jus keep quiet... finally peace...

today's paper was EFW... effective writing... first thing first... my invigilator was our discipline mistress... ooww!!! give me one hell of a fear... my hair was highlighted.. n its so obvious.. everytime she walked pass me, my heart drop to the stomach... hehhe... bedek siak sri!!!.. k the paper was kind of easy la.. if you study... they provide the answer.. n we just have to form those words into sentences... isn't it easy... like primary skul english... hehehe...

damn! the weather today was farking hot!! that y i say its FRY day... burning man... took some pic with the girls... den sent for developing... lead down to coffee shop... breakfast la... after all the eating n chatting, i went for treading.. + ira too... total was 6 bucks.. ok la... n yah she offer me to do some tuition... i think i should be ok with it.. coz need to coach on english, maths n science... n that for like primary student ard pri 4-5... i only interested in maths (uuuhhh!!! i jus love maths)... but i dunno la abt it...

we chilled ard at mcdonald... waiting for rashid n frens... hmmm.. not bad la... n tat rashid couldnt remember seeing my face at tanjong pagar... haiz...help him recalling the past, den he remember abit... aiyoh!! after all, it was fun..

the whole day, i was farking sleepy... dunno y... maybe due to the morning weather... the hot yet cool temperature... i'm sleepy tau... ... maybe i'll do tat now... juz have a nap maybe..

so chau chin chee.... muacksss.....

Wrong Perception

i noe i got tell u guys about me been admiring during my absence... wel its this one guy whom i saw in my couzins pic gallery... totally cute... but i gues everything was wrong...

yes he's cute, handsome, everything la... Looking at him jus remind me of my x... fadly la... k i mish him so much... been long time never contact... totally mish n love him... k k k! back to the story... yah my fadly is much more better... this guy that i so-called admire have this too broad shoulder... too muscular body... too of everything la... you should noe how much i dun like guys with too over muscular body... serious! not trying to mean it bad or urde ah... but everytime i see those guys with muscular body but with small head, they just remind me of the monster in Mario Brothers Movie... the gong-gong monster...

haiz could say much abt him la... for all i noe, fadly is much more better... eventhough fadly got a muscular body too.. but he's size is jus nice... even with everything...

Trouble seems to go away

hmmm... worring so much of the exam... i gues everything is ok rite now... having a hilarious conversation together... jus me n him... all sorts of thing we tried out... been a long time he haven make me laughed like a mad girl...*lolx* ... haiz never thought that he could pushed away my blues in just a second... standard ah... isn't thats one of the reason y i love him... hehehe... nwae thx nas!!

Unfinished Biz

today was my first exam day... n it was BSA... got to do with MS Excel n Ms Access... k putting aside the reaching skool early... being transferred here n there... n still come back to the same room...

u noe wat! i haven completed my exam.... The stupid Excel assignment took me almost one hour... luckily got my fren beside.. kind enouf to help me thru... i managed to do it calmly... yah i noe i've cheated in an exam... aiyah who care... really in deep shit... aiyoh!! still i jumbled up everything.. n end up getting it wrong... not perfect u noe!!!... i have to re-do everything again... damn!! i was pissed n panic wen my printer is not working.. fark!! waste my time walking here n there... i wasted lots of paper... luckily, its free... skul supply... argh!!!! i haven even started on the Access assignment... no choice but have to leave that out... fark man!! almost all haven finished doing everything... maybe now we can have the comfident to repeat... not a pass... but even if we get a pass, jus lucky enouf... aiyoh... stress tau!!!
better study much harder for the next two paper... the theory paper...

argh!!!!

Recall Back The Past

haiz.. did anyone watch James Bond - The World is not enough?.. it was on tv yesterday... n having to noe that show being played on tv... my memories with him start to come back... flashed back almost everything... heiii!! thats our first movie, we catched at cineleisure with my couzin... the first meet up... the first soft kiss... the first holding hand.. the first hug.. the first of basic couple do... damn! i couldnt stop thinking abt us... supposed to be focused on watching the show, yet i keep on remembering back... smiling even on the action scene...

urgh! how sweet can that be?... remembering we both wear almost the same... jus like everything was planned... till my couzin said "korang janji eh nak pakai same2" *grinning*... hei we r at our early 15 ... i remember it was on the year of 1999...at the end of it... ooohh!! i just wish i could turn back to the first moment in our relationship.. those anak abu relationship... i gues i'll laughed my hearts out.... hehehehe... funny la... if i keep on proceeding with each n every details... i gues i'll never stopped laughing...

I'm back

finally i managed to do layout on my own... phew!! it really took me 1/2 day to complete it... i'm satisfide with it... heheh.. coz i love the pic...

i noe mamy ppl might thought that i'm closing down this thing due to depression.. but no.. i'll keep on writing in here.. coz i gues there's lots of ppl already noe about my blog... so i'm here to stay...

basicly, i've been having lots of fun during my absence here.. always keep myself laughing... smiling... talking... admiring... yah, it atraccted at first look... been day dreaming abt him... he's jus some one who mix ard with my couzins.. hmmm... but nas will still be in my heart...

wel i can't really focus on this too much,... coz i need to concentrate on my exam.. my last exam.. n i haven study a single bit... haiyoh... mati lor!!

so i gues i need to go.. been in front of comp for the past 10 hrs... ok chau chin chee... muackssssssss!!!! really miss you all..

y? Y? y?

wondering y i closed down the blog for a moment... lots of things happened without me noeing.. and it hurts me to eventually hear changes from your own ears... see it with my own eyes... feel it with my own heart... having all that i'm stressed for the moment... think to much... but that god, i think positive way la... due to love, make me changes everything....

closing down this blog is what he's been wanting me to do... y? gues due to kpo ppl... as you noe in this world there's lot of kpo ppl... ppl whom u dont noe keep on wanting to noe... noe already nvm... but still kpo want to ask ppl ard whether its true or not.... aiyoh.. living with this kind of ppl i can still bare sometime... but not to the extend whereby, i keep on listening the same kind of thingy... i dun usually received news from one person... i'm not as dumb as wat u think... if u think you're smarter in a way that u learned everything abt life... think again... you're not the only one been there done that... i've been there done that thrice... but i learn as i do it... eventhough it hurt myself to be there sometime, but lucky i manage to pull thru on my own.. i dun need ppl help... i dun need sympaty from ppl... i manage to do it alone... coz i noe what kind of person i am... i'm stubborn n loner... everything i do, i want it my way... nomatter what ppl say or advise to me, i'll still do it my way... i noe i doing the wrong thing... but like wat ppl always says learn from the mistake... like wat one of my friend told me, not good having regration in life... you'll never survive... think again, its true... so never regrat in thing that have happened... there's always a reason behind every incident..

wel..i read up more on relationship... i do research... i learned from experience... i hear it from ppl... n i'm learning... no point have brain if u cant think properly... no point have eyes u cant see.. no point have heart if u can't feel.. i noe when you hurt too bad, you feel so numb.. till u dont noe wat to do.. rite?... in every maze there'sa always a way out.. in which sometime u have to change your way.. ur character... yes! true enouf! y must we change for others? think back... world change due to ppl, ppl change due to ppl too... so sometime when we change its for our own good... it do level up ur maturity in the way u think... always think positively... no matter how hurt you have to lie to urself... no matter how untrue the thing will turn out to be... i gues everything will be worth it...

i've been thru all this.. in which i'm the kind of person who always think negatively... always find ways n ways to search for fault in him... but i'm fortunate enouf that he help me thru..he manage to lead me the way out of negativity... till now everythough, i might stil thinking of negative things...i manage to pull thru... jus to keep my love for him burning... jus making me to believe in him once more... i'm doing it not by force... but it all come willingly... maybe it all due to love that i have for him... the determination in having him... the courage to voice out in every problems... the truth in every feeling... eveerything jus worth it eventhough it doesnt satifide me at times... i always believe that in every hard work you did, you;ll get back something good n special in return... it might not be now nor tomorrow... it all come without giving a knock on the door... jus like a surprise party for you...

Let me tell you

hmmm.. i have a lot of story to tell... urgh! everything jus make me so happy... totally enjoy myself....

Yesterday, i went to skul... sitting in the classroom... so happily... den suddenly, teacher ask to go out.. coz it almost time... the three ira wanted to go to mac... but den me stay up... thot of finishing up the cdp project... but end up never... i kol him up...asking his whereabout... sumhow he's near... so i asked him to come over to clementi... suddenly, i take my own sweet time la... until he kol me again then i realise... i'm totally sorry... they've been waiting for abt 1/2 hr(i gues)... before meeting them i meet up with the three ira... n surprise to see the police guy that they r with... i seems to seen or know this guy sumwhere.. but forgot la... fine... lucky nas told me... n that was rashid... i noe him... he used to be in tanjong pagar player... other info, i'll keep it to myself la.. back home... damn ! farking hungry n tired... so kecoh man! planning for the karaoke session in the evening... i keep on pastering him... finally he go... n surprise from planning to be only 5-6 people... end up 10 people... I really enjoy myself... one thng coz there's him... but next coz i manage to sing some songs with full of passion... hehehe... the room is farking cold for me... i'm shivering... lucky there's him beside me whom i can hug... but didnt really hug in front of frends la... paiseh kan... hide hide only.. hehehe... after that, i off with him early... too tired la... at home, moment reach home, i kol him again... damn! loving part... i manage to hear him sing something whereby people never heard it before... damn! i melt instantly... urgh!!!! he really make me fall for him even more,...

Today, unexpected experience... i off to skul early in the morning... jus to go to the libraby n print out project... suddenly moment reach bustop, it was raining heavily... argh!... den proceed wen it drizzling already.... urgh! finally, everything is done... BUT wen we wanted to take the test... Mr Tan wanted to spot check my bag... damnit!! there pack of cigrattes... haiz... he cought it... haiz.. he throw it away... n surprise he didnt scold... he even recommand me SALEM... yikes!! as a punishment we have to arrange tables and chairs for the exam... one room one person... damn!! i really own lisa and a'ah for that... jus thot we would be off ard 3+ - 4+...end up ard 5... n everyone is farking hungry... like never eat 10 days... manage to smoke... with courtesy from lisa... she is so nice... i felt so touch... going to take this opportunity to say

THANK YOU LISA AND A'AH

...

hehehe... i noe i should tell u guys this... but just to happy that finally in my toilet there's some changes... heheh.. noe wat is it?... its the toilet bowl... muahahahaha... my father chane it for us... but noe wats feel like i'm in skul... coz its the same model... haiyah... no big deal anyway...

k... i'm missing sumone right now... hmmm... u should noe who... haiz... i noe i can't go out with him this few week... coz exam is coming... so i need to prepare for that too... haiz... i misshh him... n n finally i dun need to go to skul anymore until exam days... yippy!!! hurray!!!

so long my frens... i'm too happy rite now.. i want to clean my room... to messy la... like kandang babi... hehehe... yah i noe people kol me babi eventhough i'm not that fat... haiz...

so enjoy this song... love it too much... jus like i love him... n by that u noe wat la eh... this song for him la... sing along ah...

I have a picture,
pinned to my wall.
An image of you and of me and we're laughing and loving it all.
Look at our life now, tattered and torn.
We fuss and we fight and delight in the tears that we cry until dawn

Hold me now, warm my heart
stay with me, let loving start (let loving start)

You say I'm a dreamer, we're two of a kind
Both of us searching for some perfrct world we know we'll never find
So perhaps I should leave here, yeah yeah go far away
But you know that theres no where that I'd rather be than with you here
today

[Chorus]

You ask if I love you, well what can I say?
You know that I do and if this is just one of those games that we play
So I'll sing you a new song, please don't cry anymore
and then I'll ask your forgiveness, though I don't know just what I'm
asking it for

[Chorus]


great rite!!...oteh!!! chau chin cheee.......

Its all abt being Happy

i hate it wen my body is weak... i'm sick... my body temperature seems to change... inside my body, i feel the heat.. but outer surface of it, its normal... haiz... maybe i'm too tired... or maybe due to drinking cold MILO too much... yup, i cant drink it too much... i have to restrict myself from drinking it since young..

been having lots of fun with my frens... watched the "50 first date" with the IRA'S... ok la not bad.. jus something make me feel left back... can feel the distance.. n i gues sumone too... aiyah nvm... i've experience all this... having frens... whom we thot that it will be forever.. .but in the end its never... I think i'm much more comfortable being the neutral fren... rather being left out by both group than having to think what will they think if i do this...

last friday, i meet up with him... damn! how happy can i be! got to see him!... n yah i cant stand smelling his perfume.. its so nice n sweet... we den we chilled sumwhere... wel sumthing jus make my heart beat stopped for a moment... expression changed drastically... my mind keep on thinking of the possible reason... hmmm... nvm... after that i meet up with my gal fren at her place... had some meal there den done... off we go to esplande... oh yah with a'sah too... nice to see her... we jus chilled n talked.. a'sah have to make a move first... so left only me n faz... we had a girl's soul talk... imagining stuff la... wondering y la... lots of thing la... way back, i bought for my mum sumthing... a set of brooch... aiyah mother's day gift la... yes! belated one... i noe... damn! i'm shag...

yesterday, i went to the flee market @ tanglin mall... OMG! i think i've gone crazy walking along the place... too many thing i want to buy... i bought 1 skirt, 1 dress, 6-8 tops, 1 jean n 3 bags... all for 45 bucks... yah like nas said its too much... but fo all i care... i gues its all worth it... coz i get lots of stuff in less than 50 bucks... haiz can't wait for the next one... sure i'll go... maybe next to holland... he been long time never go there... miss that place... one thing i hate going shopping, n spent too much... i got to bring back home a big plastic back.. .n have to take public transport sumore... haiyah... urgh! i'm loving it!... my mum didnt mind at all.. coz she said she have been thru this... going to jumber sale... yah.. we r from poor family.. n now my mum can't really buy for me stuff.. i gues i jus have to bought it myself... INDEPENDENT BABE!

ok fine i need a rest... my body is too weak ah... all of a sudden i felt lonely... where is he?.. Bz? haizzz....

The Third Time

This is the third time we have tried this love,
And this will be the time that it will last.
Our back and forth is buried in the past.
Now will never end, as time will prove.
I've learned through all the fights and separations
That happiness depends on having you.
It took some time to see that this was true,
Beyond all other dreams and speculations.
But now it is the rock on which I stand.
I know it, and the knowledge brings me peace.
I need no space for rambling or release.
All I am I put into your hands.
Love me well, for I'm completely yours.
The way is clear; I have no other doors.

With Him

k today i went to skul... totally fun! lots of surprise happened today... i never get debarred from the exam... except not recommended for CDP.. i have pass up the IFT project that i did till 5am...

after skul supposed to go for a talk... but i didnt... i went to meet nas at S-11... next to ntuc... glad to see him again... n first time i saw shafiq and ayun... hehehe... i ride on ayun bike wen we r on the way to jp.. damn! he speed up like going for racing.. me relax at the back... hehehe... reached at jp, we walked ard... den sit at coffee bean... i had lots of fun... ayun was so slamber... hehehe... i was hungry... n i guess the rest too... we proceed to the coffee shop sumwhere ard my area... we sit down and eat... i click kind of well with them... bagus la semua loya buruk... back time, i ride on shafiq bike... he send me home... den wait for the other two... den off they go... reach home, i was damn farking hot.... sweating all over...

n now, i'm conferencing with su n nas... hehehe... fun... listening to their conversation trying to talk back with crappy stuff... u noe la nas!! full of ideas n words... fun la... haiz... can't get enouf of this guy la... i really love him... looking at the pic that i put, urgh!!! i fall for him even more... i'm not afraid to say this... I'm going to make him mine... hehehe ... confident sri!!! jgn siut nanti ramai org marah!!!... argh heck care with people ah... i only wan people to noe that i've happy with him... GET IT!!!

Mother's Day

yes i noe.. i'm at home rite now... doing nothing... body too tired...

yesterday event was great.. total fun... listening my aunties conversation... keep on eating... laughing here n there.. oh yah... after so long, i finally got to see Cik Samat(Pendek's uncle) again... its been ages siak... i looked at him reminds me of Pendek... exactly the same... the body size, the features... haiz... kind of miss him... wel jus have lots of fun... entainment by my own aunt... *lol* they r so proud to receive the present... the apron n the bag... haiz...

oh yah! my couzin nadia left singapore already... ooh tat favourite couzin of mine... i'm glad to hear that she happier with Alif... her previous x... n surprisingly that he manage to make her forget abt her beloved x, Adib... haiz... i'm so happy for her.. finally got to see the face shine once more... k lets take a look at her pic with my good-looking couzin,



i'm too tired rite now... n yah before i forgot, my teacher jus kol... nothing much but jus asking me to go to skul... hehehe... argh!!! c how la.... chau chin chee.. .

Fun! Fun! Fun!

i noe i've never been updating blog for past few days... bz la.. preparing for today... it's MOTHER'S DAY rite! so need to buy stuff for today celebration.. one hell of a big celebration we going to have...

all i can say is that i had a lot of FUN with my gal pal... went shopping... chatting... letting out anger abt my friends relationship... FUN! FUN! FUN! all the way!... *grinning*

But most of all, i really really really enjoy myself with my beloved dear... it all happened last friday... i accompany him to TB center... den walked ard at NOVENA SQ... den we lead down to PS for some PIZZA HUT... coz he's the one craving for it... every single moment of it, i'll never forget... i can't be saying it here... coz it will be a long entry... i want to keep it short... coz i'm tired... k... I think i've FALLEN MUCH DEPPER for him... he's so adorable... he never make my gums dry... always keep me laughing... smiling... so happily... n how i love to see him get irritated... urgh!!! everything come in one pakage... feel like be with him all the time... dun wan ah.. later he think i'm a stalker... hehehe... wel nwae i dun care... i'm happier with him rite now... for me la... for him, i dunno.. to have all this kind of package which always come in a surprise, i gues i dun mind waiting another 6 more years down the road... n that would be wen i'm 25... heheh as promised... i dun mind we being in this way... so all i want to say now.... thank you for bringing me joy... n let me shout this out....

I LOVE YOU

...

k now i want to have a rest... today the party going to start at ard 4... to everyone...

Enjoy Weekend

n i want to shout this, especially my mum... i noe i would say it face to face with her... so jus let me do this...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY N I LOVE YOU IBU, MUMMY

... thx for all the love n care u had for me... muacks!!!


k thats my parent...

chau chin chee!!!!!

Ohhh Nooo!!

the weather today is so nice.. so cold... all due to the raining... n thats wat make me lazy to get up from bed... adding more with the dreams in my head... ahhhh!!! everything goes well... but after that everything jus bored me to death... dunno wat to do... chatting also bring me down... everyone start to fell bored... checking msgs also nothing... yesterday was my sweet day, things happened so nice n sweet...

first,i did went to skul... n nice of su to eventually kol me ask to kirim anything at bk.. moment here bk, totally wake up la... den quickly wash up n lead down to bk imm... damn!! can't believe that i finally go to eat at BK... strike off mushsroom swiss double... hehehe... lots of fun... miss them too much... skul itself... great...

second, i dunno y i'm feeling this way... paticular sumone i like... everything goes well... everytime meet up... feel like meeting up again n again... seems closes like there's chemistry develop... the way we communicate... the way we talked... the way we treat each other... the way we tease each other... everytime saw the smile n face, light up the day... make u smile n smitten thruout the whole day... jus like yesterday... urghhhhhh!!! *melts* unbelievable!!! hmmmm... but i noe my limit to all this... due to sumthing... but its jus so sweet... yah how i wish rite... but too bad... jus let me keep this alone... sshhhhh! secret kept... *sealed*

third, at nite... i went for that event... at masjid mujahidin.... ok la... everything goes well... wen everything done, didnt expect to meet up with his father... n surprisingly, his father was the one who talked to me first... sori ah me potek... didnt wear spec.. so didnt get to see everything clearly... den jus asking question here n there... den moment after that i jus smile... *grinning* until my mum asked who... den i jus say la... his father... den dah... walk up near to the parking lot... n surprise to see the mum n him... i was jus waving at them.. but actually i couldnt see whether they waving at me or not... heheheh... den waiting for my dad... den off to al-azhar den back home nothing much...

forth, my old crushy kol me... hafidz... surprise to get a miss kol from him... obviously expecting fom the other person but instead... haiz.... so talk on conference for a while... den kol hafidz back at ard 1... talked abt skul, tarian, past experience... ok la.... fun... never thought that we could eventually talked again on the phone... been long time seh...since i rejected his love... n that was around sec 4... till lately this year, we meet up again at my family gathering.. damn!!! can't believe lor... talked till 3am... wow!! haiz....

k n this one is not sweet for me... got a news that wandy broke up with faezah.. due to the old girlfriend... n i think yesterday that was his girlfriend who come to our skul... damn!!! dun wanna comment... haiz... everytime look at him, my heart melts... but to look much more longer, make me wanna puke... cant believe that he could be like that... haiz.... huh... so uch of the forever... .hello... don't u noe that forever means never... keep on promising forever n ever... it will all end up NEVER....

haiz... dunno la.... wel noe i wanna do my project... got to finish it up... so bye... chau chin chee....

The kind Of Me

sori for not updating things lately... lots of things happen la... most of the time, i'll be going out with my frens... jus like last saturday... went to jp with faz n nana n kakak... really have fun there... having nana who keep on melatar... seeing her make me tired... keep on laughing non-stop... we saw my couzin frenz.... the fun is becoming even more... they keep on disturbing nana... *lol*

yesterday, sitting at home doing nothing... jus talking to daniel... den wake my dear up... den talk to him pulak... after him off to soccer, i did nothing at home... jus trying to do my frontpage project... n surprisingly, i only manage to finish up one page of the project... damn!!! that is so weak of me... ahh nvm... who care nwae... n now i'm trying to finish up the other 9 pages... OMG!... damn! i'm craving for BK... i'm hungry ah... from previous week tau.... so any kind-hearted party, pls buy Mushsroom Swiss Double for me... heheheh... tak tau malu nye sri!!...

ok here come the serious part... i'm going to say this to my fren, shasha... wel i've read up ur entry... n i noe how u feel... its ouch to noe the truth only wen you thot that everything goes smooth sailing... i noe you didnt expect this to happen, rite? wats more having to hear it from his own mouth... yes truth hurts... so now all i can suggest to you is that you relax n ease yourself at a moment... be yourself... do some searching... tink of positive thingy... dun curse n swear... N DUN HATE HIM... coz you'll fall for him even more... jus dislike will do... if you really wanna be with him, n u have faith in yourself that both of you can be together, by all means, keep on loving him... keep it burning... love will make you forget abt the problem... love make you see the good n sweet side of him again... love will only bring you guys back together... but have to see the respond too... see how it goes... BUt i do believe that wanting sumone, you got to have the patient n effort... it doesnt matter if its you who will be the initiative party... it doesnt matter if you are the only one putting in effort... it doesnt matter if you have to shower him all your love n without getting anything in return... one thing abt most guys... they dun really see things our way... n they love to take things for granted... they noe that we love n care for them... they noe we can't live without them... but all they want to do is to test the patience.... wen we go silent for a moment, they will search for us... its jus like tango... you move front, he move back... you move back, he come forward... den finale den you guys get back together... dance it nice n smoothly... so sha, dun stress urself up... kol me if u need more help... its easier me saying all this... but i noe its hard for you to do it.. so up to ur own choice... think wats good for you... i'll be here to support you in any ways... *teddy hugs* muacks... love ya... n yah dun do silly things like before eh... dun ok!...

wel jus a piece of advise... based on experiences... but i think i talk crappy up there.. aiyah dunno la... i like it if things being talk thru phone... having here i have to type... n having me typing, i'll started talking crappy... haiyo!!! k la... i need a computer break.. been on since noon... c ya... chau chin chee...